To a vile Magdalene
(Gleanings from the Inner Life of Ruth Bryan)
Never had anyone . . .
so rich a Banker,
so kind a Husband,
so tender a Shepherd,
so forbearing a Captain—
as I have in my glorious Christ!
The more I venture—the more He encourages.
The bolder I am—the kinder He grows.
The more I expect—the more He gives.
I cannot tire or wear Him out, for He is full, yes,
fullness of grace, mercy, love, and compassion!
The one-half of His glory has never been expressed
by mortal tongue; nor the thousandth part of His
ravishments and condescension conceived by those
who have not felt them. This, this is my—oh yes!
my Beloved—and this is my Friend! Oh, what
mercy to have another love-glimpse of Him.
I look at myself with wonder of amazement and
overwhelming delight—because a monument of
saving, sovereign mercy! Happy! unspeakably
happy! Amazing miracle of superabounding love!
Hasten the day when in His full-orbed glory I shall
lose my sorrows and my sins forever! I adore and
magnify Him for His mercy—amazing mercy—to a
vile Magdalene. Hallelujah! Amen!
The believer's perfection
(Gleanings from the Inner Life of Ruth Bryan)
I am most exceedingly distressed by my sins, and
feel the need of Jesus' precious blood every hour!
I need a supply from the Fountain! "On that day
a fountain will be opened . . . a fountain to cleanse
them from all their sins and defilement." Zech. 13:1
Feeling fully what I am in myself, and proving
afresh that "in my flesh dwells no good thing"—
in this sad state I fly to Jesus as my only refuge!
Oh that the depth of my sin and misery may be
overcome by His rich grace, that with Mary I may
weep at His dear feet, and love much, having
much forgiven.
While in the body we shall never be free from sin.
I had been looking for something from and in my
flesh which the Word of God does not warrant me
to expect. "That which is born of the flesh is flesh"
—and ever will be!
The believer's perfection is in Christ. Oh that
He may condescend to teach me, and lead me to
look straight out of self—to a glorious Christ!
"And you are complete in Him." Colossians 2:10
Sweet comfort
(Gleanings from the Inner Life of Ruth Bryan)
During the past night I have again been called to
suffer much bodily affliction and very severe pain—
but was favored with such sweet comfort from my
precious Savior that it seemed light; nay, I thought
I could willingly bear a life of such suffering—if I
might constantly enjoy His presence!
Oh, how delightful was the hope of an eternity of
glory, and how sweet the thought that when life's
journey was ended, the veil would be drawn aside,
and no cloud ever again intervene to hide from my
soul, even for one moment, the lovely countenance
of my adorable Jesus!
Ten thousand thanks to you, dearest Savior, for this
love-glimpse! I long for more tokens of Your love,
and thirst for more constant communion with You!
Such is my frailty, that I am ever prone to sin. Come,
precious Jesus! chase away these thick clouds, and
let me behold Your lovely countenance, and be so
captivated with Your charms, that I may never more
give my heart to earthly objects!
Oh, what a picture!
(Gleanings from the Inner Life of Ruth Bryan
—written at the age of seventeen)
I seem to have some feeling about Divine things;
but, alas! this afternoon am as stupid as usual.
Nothing, nothing will break this hard heart! Oh,
that I may be directed by the Spirit of truth to
the right way of happiness!
I fear that I am not affected as I ought, and have
only a faint desire to become a Christian—and that
merely to escape hell. Lord, have mercy upon me!
Lead aright! Break this hard, hard heart! You, Lord,
know what I would have—even the forgiveness
of my sins.
During service I was as cold as a stone! Oh, when
will this vile heart be melted and subdued by divine
grace? I have no faith, no humility, no sense of sin, no
confidence in the promises, no fear of the threatened
punishments; nor anything that I ought to have!
Oh, what a picture!
O Lord, break this heart into ten thousand pieces!
Oh! I would sooner suffer all horrors and terrors
imaginable, and be saved at last—than be in my
present dreadful and stupid state. Break—break,
oh, break my heart, and make me give it entirely
to You, O blessed Savior!
Tell your sorrows and secrets
("The Marvelous Riches of Savoring Christ,
The letters of Ruth Bryan" 1805-1860)
"This is what the Lord says—Cursed are those who put
their trust in mere humans and turn their hearts away
from the Lord. They are like stunted shrubs in the desert,
with no hope for the future. They will live in the barren
wilderness, on the salty flats where no one lives. But
blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made
the Lord their hope and confidence. They are like trees
planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep
into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat
or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay
green, and they go right on producing delicious fruit."
Jeremiah 17:5-8
How I do like this passage! It is so descriptive of the
blessedness of trusting in the Lord alone; and the sterility
and disappointment of all creature confidence!
I know not your present difficulties, nor need I know them,
for I could not bring you out of them! But I do bless the Lord
that He has brought you into the very best posture of soul—
looking to Him alone. Tell your sorrows and secrets to
this your Friend, watch His eye, obey His bidding—and go
not to carnal and lower means for relief.
Adieu in our heavenly Bridegroom, and in His undying love,
Ruth
Not puny, sinful worms!
("The Marvelous Riches of Savoring Christ,
The letters of Ruth Bryan" 1805-1860)
Deliverance seldom comes in the way we look for it;
for "Who has directed the Spirit of the Lord, or who
gave Him His counsel? Who did He consult with? Who
gave Him understanding and taught Him the paths of
justice? Who taught Him knowledge and showed Him
the way of understanding?" Isaiah 40:13-14
Ah, has not the Lord frustrated our purposes over and over
again! I cannot tell you with what majesty this passage has
often come to my mind—"Who gave Him His counsel?" Not
puny, sinful worms! He will counsel for them—but not with
them. "My counsel shall stand, and I will do all My pleasure."
Yet "fear not, worm Jacob, I will help you"—help you to stand
still and see My salvation; or help you to walk on in the dark
in a rough and unknown path—just as My wisdom sees fit.
Spiritual eyesight is not given to look at the outward path—
but to look at our Guide; not to look before us at the way we
are going to travel—but to look only at Him who will guide us
safely through all, who will Himself be our way. Oh, to be kept
abiding in Him, and constantly looking unto Him! It is most
safe and blessed—but very contrary to flesh and blood!
"I will lead the blind by a way they did not know; I will guide
them on paths they have not known. I will turn darkness to
light in front of them, and rough places into level ground.
This is what I will do for them, and I will not forsake them."
Isaiah 42:16
Spiritual health and strength
("The Marvelous Riches of Savoring Christ,
The letters of Ruth Bryan" 1805-1860)
"My flesh is real food and My blood is real drink.
The one who eats My flesh and drinks My blood
lives in Me, and I in him." John 6:55-56
It is a present act—"eats" and "drinks."
Is the very life and death, person and work of Jesus
—the daily feast of your soul? Are you eating His flesh,
and drinking His blood? Let us see to it, that we are
seeking spiritual health and strength in no other
way than by the continual, daily feeding on Christ!
There is an ever fresh, ever full, sweetness in
heaven's precious Lamb! Oh, this precious truth!
It is gospel wine to my poor soul!
We have such a Christ that we little think how far His
glories and His matchless love surpass what we have
ever yet conceived. We do not make half enough of
Him—heaven's brightest gem, and richest treasure!
Oh, that the precious Comforter may reveal Him more
and more—that we may count all other things but filth
and dross.
Our works are all broken and faulty
("The Marvelous Riches of Savoring Christ,
The letters of Ruth Bryan" 1805-1860)